Self Fulfilling Prophecy and Self Serving Bias

Let’s get straight to the point.

I don’t know guys, I think I don’t know my self very well. Sometimes I’m feeling so proud of me, and sometimes I hate my self too. It could happened in the same day.

Like, for example, I found a book (damn I bought another book again :/) that I think it suits for me. It explained about graphic design briefly, I got a mini (but cute) pouch from an illustrator in a book tour event. I feel so happy at that time! Oh, how lucky I was! What worse can happen?

Worst things happened to me one by one. I got hit by the automatic parking gate. I have no fckin clue where was pedestrian supposed to walk. When I got hit, I heard that the staff yelled at me “watch out!” RIGHT AFTER I GOT HIT. I’m sure he DID THAT ON PURPOSE.

Thus, I searched for a grab driver, the phone was broken and I realized its battery isn’t right. I waited for 1 hour for nothing. I got home by riding a public transportation instead. The bestest moment of a day can be broken in just 3 minutes.

FYI, when I got off from the bus, I have to WALK for about 30-45 minutes to arrive in front of my house. If not, I have to take another public transportation again, twice, plus the traffic jam. A passenger told me, my plastic bag was torn up. Great. Really.

In the bus, I concerned what just happened with me. “why do I thinking like this?” “Isn’t it not good for my health?” “why is everything bad happened to me at once?” “why do people walks SO FCKN SLOW when I feel irritated?” “why do I carry my sisters’ items?” (its weight was about 1-2 kg) “why I haven’t found a guy that has the same hobby as me?” Aggh, I feel like my brain is shrinking.

Eh, almost forgot. Maybe I think like this because I didn’t got what was supposed to be mine. My rights. Last night I registered to a “book tour” event. Although the book wasn’t really my taste (romance, and the writer had thousand experience of broken heart) I’m afraid I wouldn’t get what he was saying. But the author said “sure you may join” after I asked him in his instagram. He speaks funny.

The problem is, in the poster said “awesome prize is waiting for the first 10 partcipants”. I feel thrilled. In the end of the book tour, my name was mentioned in the second place. Th editor of the book, who was willing to give the prize to the ‘lucky’ participants, never give the prize (maybe only to me? I don’t know who were the other 9 participants). The prize was a small notebook. It wasn’t cute either. I don’t need it. I have plenty of notebooks in my home, haven’t finished them yet. But I feel like my life is missing and colorless. What was supposed to be mine never arrive. Although I don’t really need it.

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Being pathetic

While I was thinking how bad I was, suddenly I remember another bad memory from the past (when I was at school, I was being bullied many ttimes). And then I remember who were helped me at that time, and who doesn’t care about me.
So, while studying, I see a person who doesn’t care about me on instagram. After some check, I asked her to follow me back, maybe she doesn’t know me because I have a different username from my real name. Her latest photo was posted about 4 minutes ago, it’s a big chance that she was still in on her screen. After a night, she doesn’t follow me back. And then I wonder if everyone I have met doesn’t remember me for some purposes

Book diet week three

Finally! I can’t believe I’ll made it until week 3! Recently, I had been visiting a bookstore not very far from my house, about 1.5 km I think. I was very passionately want to buy at least a book that day. And I don’t buy a book! I only bought 2 bookmarks and a folder for my sister. I’m so glad my book diet works really well😆

I’m not completely happy to be honest. There are a pile of (good) bargain books in the bookstore, for example: agatha Christie, roald dahl, penguin classics, Shakespeare, and Stephen king. I want to buy miss miss marple’s final cases and the green mile series. Normally, english books costs Rp 80.000 – 150.000 for paperbacks. These books only costs 30.000 thick or not. Isn’t it a good deal?

Well, my mom promised me, she’ll buy a book if I finished reading Quran. It’s so close. I think it’s about 30 pages left.

Here’s my to-be-read list if you guys wonder:
1. Pax (illustrated by jon klassen)
2. The nest (illustrated by jon klassen)
3. Brambly hedge
4. The seacrow island (by Astrid lindgren)
5. The chronicles of harris burdick

Unboxing Horunabi Stamping Starter Kit (+ testimoni smartyhands.com)

Oh iya, aku belum cerita nih. Selain suka buku, aku juga sukaa banget sama yang namanya crafting. Waktu dulu aku pernah ngecraft (mungkin istilah yg lebih tepatnya quilting ya hehe) kain flanel. Aku mulai ngecraft2an pas sd, waktu itu kan libur habis un, jadi emang nganggur banget sih. Dari clay terus pindah ke kain flanel, dari kain flanel saat ini aku lagi crafting yg namanya carving stamp. Yaitu bikin stempel dari karet, caranya dengan mengukir karet blok, yg disebut sebagai rubber block (istilah inggrisnya gampang ketebak gitu ya😂😜)

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Testimonial/ review Mizan Store

Baru pertama kali belanja di mizan store nih! Bukunya barusaaaaaaan banget nyampe, makasih mizanstore!

Oke, buat yg belum tau what’s going on, waktu minggu kemaren, aku beli buku wonderstruck karya brian selznick (review menanti), harganya muraaaaaaah banget. Cuma 20k, janggal kan? Biasanya buku illustrated 600 halaman harganya bisa nyampe 70k, tp ini mah cuma 20k!! Continue reading “Testimonial/ review Mizan Store”